I am at a stage in my life where I feel the need to define everything. (Does this stage ever go away?) But sadly, I have just realized much of my time has been devoted to the outward things. How I look. What I do. Where my time goes. Truthfully these things are only as important as the heart that they reflect.
The majority of my time should be spent as defining myself as a child of God. Most of my life I have tried to define myself as a daughter, but I gave ownership to the wrong person. All too often I found myself setting out to please my earthly dad or the world. That, my friends, is idolatry And to be honest, I missed the point. My dad is the most pleased when I am following the Lord wholeheartedly. That is his prayer for me, daily. And I am so blessed to have come to this conclusion.
I am a child of God. That is all that matters. Everything else is poopy garbage.
Overwhelmingly difficult. It’s a struggle every morning to get up and make important decisions…like what to wear, how to do my hair, and what to eat for breakfast….
And how do I cope? I lie in bed, letting the minutes pass by. I think that perhaps the pressure will help me decide, but that has never actually happened. Instead I end up with an outfit I dislike, food that is lame and with a pony tail (not that there is anything wrong with my pony tail, I just wear them daily).
Moral of the story. Mom was a genius when she made me pick my clothes out the night before and pack my lunch after dinner.
The reason why I things have been a little sparse around here is because I have ANOTHER blog. I sometimes feel like Be Greeted gets the short end of the stick, but the truth is that both blogs are so different and that means they require different things from me.
I secretly love Alder + Gold a lot. Sometimes I have to be careful that my Tumblr doesn’t feel so left out. But there is a lot to love about wedding blogging.
1. I have to read other wedding blogs - I have been having a love affair with these blogs for several years now, however now I have an excuse to do this research. To make sure that Alder + Gold stays relevant, we are constantly comparing ourselves to other blogs. We are also looking to see what others are inspired by, because some of the best ideas are just old ideas that are tweaked to fit a new era, client or idea!
2. I have to be on pinterest - Most of our inspiration photos are originally found on pinterest. It is so easy and wonderful to see how others have constructed an event from the same concepts that we use.
3. I have met so many new people - I am always looking for new people to get involved in our project. Sometimes its a little weird - like the time I ambushed the poor girl doing chalk art to get her contact info while I was on my way home from meeting with a client. But it has paid off!
If I hear the phrase, “everything in moderation,” one more time I will probably snap (or find a bat to dive bomb yo). Everything should not be in moderation. Somethings (like dark chocolate, sleeping, coffee, television watching, soccer playing and number of outfits tried on before a date) should be tempered. If they weren’t we might have to change the rules of soccer to allow me to eat dark chocolate while I play.
But other things should be in excess. For example - manners. We should be polite and considerate of others needs ALL THE TIME. Not just when it is convenient for us. Or common sense. We should always think through the end results before we take a flying leap.
So, while moderation is a good thing, it is not an acceptable excuse for unsociable behaviors. End of my rant.
I know that I am not an old maid, but some days I know that I have the disposition of one. Like the other day when a high schooler I know referred to her boyfriend as “her man.” Puh-lease. Or when a friend instagramed a photo of her engagement ring with a really cheesy caption. I don’t think that my eyes could roll around any faster.
Its not that I am jealous. I love where I am at in life. But every time I see stuff like that, the bitterness wells up inside of me. I have to spend some quality time in prayer, begging for an adjustment. I know that nothing I can do can solve my bitterness. Only the Holy Spirit.
I want to be more than a pretty face. I don’t want people to be shocked when intelligent words come out of my mouth or when I complete a complicated task. I don’t know what I am doing now that makes these a reality, but whatever it is I want it to change. Please take me seriously. I am not an idiot. I am not helpless. I am a capable young woman. I want to roar, but I can’t when every time I make an attempt you pat me on the head.
As a substitute teacher’s aide, I spend a lot of time in special education class rooms. The funny thing is that I don’t feel like my time there is spent teaching, but rather I spend my whole day learning. Tonight, my heart is full of good memories and well, I have to share them somewhere.
1. Never underestimate the importance of breaks - I don’t know how many meltdowns I have seen take place because someone was pushed past their breaking point. Taking a break is essientially a reset moment for both parties.
2. If you are going to say something, say it all the way. I always know where I stand in a student’s life because they tell me. Communication, while it isn’t always polite, is happening. If they don’t like what I am doing, they will tell me. Why don’t I do that? Why do I insist on keeping it all in???
3. If you are going to do something, do it with your whole body. I am always attempting to do about one million things at one time, but sped kids are different. Their whole body is used to do one thing - either writing their paper, playing with sensory toys, or throwing a fit. Arms, head, feet - everything. And the job gets done quickly. I, on the other hand, text with my hands, listen with my ears, and blog in my brain and everything takes three times as long!